How do I explain the unexplainable?

 
   I'm in a spiritual battle. I find myself reacting when I truly want to stop and think it through, and it is difficult to explain. Perhaps part of it is being under so much stress that I react before I can think.
   I know for a certainty that God works all things out for our highest good, even when we don't understand.  Judges 2:20-23, God says He was angry with His people and would no longer drive out the strong, immoral, and strong nations where His people were settling; however, chapter 3:4, says that God Himself left those nations to teach the next generation to fight.  The battles are stronger than we realize; often people have given me a formula for fighting the enemy, saying if I will do such and so I will have no more trouble, but that's just not the way it works.
   This sounds strange, but the enemy of our souls has been trying to get me to leave my church, but I can't; recently I asked God to send me wherever He pleased and I was prepared to move on, thinking it even best for all. So I asked Him if I should go, and He gave me I Chron 28:20, telling me to not be afraid or discouraged for He is with me, and will not fail to be with me until His work here is finished.  And Nehemiah 4:14; don't be afraid, but fight for my brothers.
   We have read Scripture through the filter of church tradition and so miss the ways God wants to interact with us, just like Moses, Abraham, and Elisha, with His courage, and trusting Him to lead us. We do have a mortal enemy that has taken down many ministries and pastors, but God is blocking him and his minions at a place where the leadership wants to follow Him faithfully, and not their own agendas.
   Believe God, trust Him, even when others are not trustworthy; there is a war for the eternal lives of many, and we are all in the thick of it.

 My role as care-giver is kicking into high gear again as my husband has been hospitalized 9 days now with no set time for discharge. Mike is not feeling well yet, and he will likely go to a rehabilitation facility to see how he does, if he can improve, if he can gain mobility back, then make appropriate decisions from there, with a nursing home as a possibility. We don't want to make such a decision; he's head of our home, he needs to be here; yet, I'm not fully capable of caring for someone who may well need 24/7 care.
This is very difficult, and not what we had envisioned for the future.....yet, to see the light of Jesus shine through him, even in his condition, is a Beautiful thing to see! Perhaps because of his condition...instead of complaining or becoming bitter or shriveling up into self-pity, he is choosing to press in to Jesus!
Although I have not understood what God was doing in many ways, this past six years has been about learning the voice of God, learning to obey Him no matter what it looks like, and trusting Him no matter what others think they see...it is about trusting God and choosing Him above all, and Mike has been learning along with me.  No, it's much more, it is all about God's Grace and highlighting our own weaknesses, and showcasing God's Abundant Love  To be so utterly helpless as Mike is, yet choosing to believe God has His very best for us is Beautiful!!  It is seeing what Grace looks like, it is seeing God's heart pouring out toward others.  It is seeing what makes life Rich and Authentic.
Some may say God is cruel in all this, but His kindness is seen in the heart of Mike.  God is not cruel, but we choose to step away from His protection when we don't trust Him. His Kindness is seen in a Dear Friend whom God used to reveal Himself to me.  It is seen in God letting me be a part of the transforming of lives through His Spirit.  It is seen in the transformation of my own life as God said to not be afraid.
The only appropriate response to seeing what God has done is Worship in Joy, even in the uncertainties and sorrows,  Praise God, from Whom all Blessing Flow!

The Mystery of Being the Only one; and Being One with All He has Chosen

~~~  Today I want to walk with Jesus.
~~~  Of course, don't we all, that is, all who have known Him as Savior and Lord?
~~~  Yes, but I want to really be with Him, as a child in delight and safety with an adoring parent.
~~~  But more.
~~~  To see in His eyes the love my heart has always dreamed of; to be swept away to a place only He and I inhabit; a place where my being can just be one with Him, where my heart is fulfilled with the most Beautiful of Loves! Where we dance in perfect step, in perfect harmony, each knowing the shared rhythm as we glide in the glory of His Creation, and joy in the rush of His river, in the story of His stars, in the beauty of His flowers, in the majesty of His mountains, and breathe in the fresh air of His heavens.
~~~  He is my Bridegroom, the Joy of my heart, my Sweetest Dreams come true. He is my Reality, the one who paid the Bridal price for me, who paid the price for my sin and gave me His Purity to cover my shame and make me His own!
~~~  I am the Bride, washed White in His Blood! He comes extending His Hand, and I weep with gratitude as I place my finger in the scar of the nail that should have been mine! And, again, I looked into those eyes full of the most Tender Love I have ever experienced, and I fall in worship...then He lifts me up to sit with Him in the Clarity and Richness of heavenly places!! Beauty beyond dreams.
~~~  This is My Beloved; I am His, and He is mine, alone! Then He takes my hand, lifts me to my feet, and we walk together, just Him and I, and we walk the earth the show others this Beauty and bring life to their own Dreams!
~~~  Just Him and me. The two of us, in Love, in Majesty.
~~~  This Love grows and can't be shut up to be consumed by us alone, it must be shared to remain Love. It will always be just Him and I. And it will always be you and them and Him and I.
~~~  The Mystery of being the only one, and being as one with all He has chosen!
~~~  Come, you have accepted His Salvation, now accept His Invitation to Dance, to be Loved as His Adored, to be His one and only! Come, awaken to His Beautiful Gaze. Come, walk with Him and share His Love. Come, let Love wash another in His Blood, and walk with the Newly Redeemed, and let all be Loved with this Most Sweet of all Dreams!
~~~  And I weep in gratitude and worship!

The Greatest is love...

    When children don't know Jesus they grow up thinking that the relationship between a man and a woman is the ultimate experience of love, and when those relationships prove less than had been hoped, their lives can becomes battlefields of great frustration. Media, and other insecure individuals, pile massive amounts of insecurity into hearts which are longing for acceptance and genuine love, and some kids are so destroyed they end their lives. Some kids act out in many destructive ways in a downward spiral; some take a higher road to personal achievements; others plod through life in the best way they know how, compensating for perceived lack of character, abilities, etc.
  What if Jesus was known as a Savior, Lord, and Friend in these early years? What if He could be known as the deepest desire experienced? What if He could be known by children in schools, by children who have no other sources of knowing Him? What if there was a club, unrestricted by government policies, in which kids would be exposed to history that is true, including the knowledge of the foundation of our country, and that the Same Person who led our Fore Fathers to form our nation, could be known by the kids personally, and find the ultimate relationship?
  I'm not speaking of pie-in-the-sky smooth sailing for life, but Someone who loves them with a deep passion and longs to guide them through life in what is the very best for them, and an easing of the struggles of growing up just because He is there.
  Friendships given as gifts by Jesus are closer than those without Him, because He wants His Church to be united by the Holy Spirit, and wants us to have great Joy in Him and each other. In New Testament times brothers were greeted with holy kiss, but we are too afraid of such closeness in our society, and that was accepted then because the Church was to be one Body. Still, Jesus makes friendships with strong bonds, and these precious friendships, through Jesus, are what many kids are looking for today, second only to knowing Him.
  Jesus said, 'don't be afraid'; He wants to bring us these friendships to reveal Himself through each other and to each other; I want to lift up and encourage my Friends, even though I fail too often for whatever reason. Because Jesus wants this even more than we do, I will pursue Him first, and be grateful for His Gift. Marriage, while not the ultimate relationship, is a pattern of Jesus and His Church and to be greatly treasured; while we are afraid to acknowledge that He loves each of us with such a passion and closeness, it is Blessedly true, except His Love for us is all giving, and not self-serving in the least. I pray such a blessing for the kids, now, and as they mature and grow toward Him.
  This is why a kid's history club is in the works, and if only one is helped, then that one is our hearts' reward, and the Great, Great Joy of Jesus!!